The idea of sex grosses me out after I cum. Our parts are so fucking disgusting looking (well, not mine, lol~) but I really wonder why physical attraction/sex is so high on peoples lists. Not saying it isn’t for me but the more I think about it, the more I just want somebody cool and to have fun around and to fuck when we’re horny. I guess I’ve always looked at it like that, though.
And on that note, I realize that sometimes I seek for validation that isn’t necessary. I always assume things. If I don’t hear it - I don’t think it’s there. My friend didn’t talk to me for about 5 days and I texted her why and she said “You were so mad at me last time we talked that I was scared to talk to you, I miss you”. I was shocked because in my head, I just think she didn’t care and never wanted to talk.
In some cases people dont give a fuck, but I need to start giving people more credit and stop assuming. You can only tell people how much you care and the rest should be validated for what they do or what they have done. I guess my “what have you done for me lately” attitude needs to stop or I’ll drive myself crazy.
Anyway, busy tomorrow again so yeah. Always cool being busy
I think the worst thing you can do is suffocate somebody in a relationship.
My friend recently just broke up with her boyfriend of two years (who was extremely jealous/didnt let her do shit). She had to save me as “nicole” in her phone. She would always pretend that her relationship was fine and she was happy but deep down she wasnt. Now I’m reading shit from her that I thought I would never see. I’m like damn, you’re gonna make nigga kill himself.. “I hope..” LOL
But yeah, I don’t get guys/girls that do that. Keep tabs on their significant other 24/7. Let them live, let them breathe and have a mind of their own. It’s one thing to care for somebody and its another to completely dominate every facet of their life.
I’m definitely not the most perfect person and I do get envious and jealous of people and their situations sometimes - it’s simple human emotion. But love/lust can be blinded by greed. You are not the only person in their life.
Sorry, this post reads like a 8th grader but I just find it weird how people so “close” can be complete strangers a day later. Be good to people in general, and be good to the special people in your life.
Okay officially going to be in Toronto from Novem 18ish-22ndish. 3 days, 4 tops.
Until your used to my face
And my mystery fades
I got you
So baby love me
Before they all love me
Until you won’t love me
Because they all left me
I’ll be different
I think I’ll be different
I hope I’m not different
And I hope you’ll still listen
I’m a hypocrite. Guilty of dipping in the same debauchery that makes my stomach churn. I never look at myself. I figure at the very least, whatever I do has zero impact on most people and at this moment is seems much more evident than ever before. However, I’m hilariously wrong in most facets of my life so maybe I do impact people. Its ironic that when I’ve been steadily surrounded is when I’ve felt the most alone.
It doesn’t really hurt. I don’t have time to think about much as I have, but I still have my moments. I don’t know. Loneliness is subjective. I’m sure if I reach out to certain people I can get a response, but who wants that? A nice message or reassurance goes a long way. Don’t take it for granted, people.
I’m aimlessly wandering trying to find out where I’m going in life and the only way to truly find out is by myself. I’m not sure what to believe anymore. I’m not looking for love. I just want a constant happiness very few are able to provide, possibly of no fault but my own.
Not trying to get Kris Humphried
You are missed.
partying so much latelyyy
Long ass day.
Started off awkward, Halloween Horror Nights was pretty fun though. GOT STUPID SCARED
"You look like you’re gaining weight"
Music to my ears