Swear I could’ve done more and I didn’t, swear I’ve done too much.

Remember the good times.

Also, grats to my friend Richard, I missed his wedding and I feel horrible about it. However he’s married to the girl of his dreams and had a dope honeymoon and alladat!

Actually happy for the first time in a long while. Just because I’m content, really.

Sorry my posts in here suck lately. I don’t write much anymore because, well, I usually wrote when something was bugging me or too much to keep inside. I really don’t have much to complain about, I guess a small part of me feels really empty but it just serves as a caveat of life that you can’t control anything.

Still learning everyday.

Life takes the craziest turns.

I won’t beat up on myself too much though. I just need positive energy. I appreciate whoever has been adding to that, and again, fuck you to everybody else trying to impress people by talking shit. I think its funny when 30 year olds on the internet are still trolling because they have nothing better to do.

Everybody can say its not my fault but what difference does it make? I think I deserve everything that comes to me in some sense.

On the real though. I am content with life at the moment. Not happy, just content. Living it one day at a time, and I think thats best.

This is an apology letter to the both of us
for how long it took me to let things go
It was not my intention to make such a
production of the emptiness between us
playing tuba on the tombstone of a soprano
to try and keep some dead singer’s perspective alive.
It’s just that I coulda swore you had sung me a love song back there
and that you meant it
but I guess sometimes people just chew with their mouth open

Buddy Wakefield

Just when I think I express myself well, others have a way with words to describe a situation better than you can yourself.

Wow I’m really losing it.

I don’t want you out of my life but if its to benefit my mental health, I guess I have to. This losing people close to you thing 1 by 1 hurts.

Rustie is my new god.

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