self worth meter; 5

swings from 0-100 at a minutes notice

i give my pops a hard time, but i love him a lot. he doesn’t help me with some things and lets me fuck up on my own, but i see why. he’s not the best person to go to for emotions and shit but i know he cares a lot.

so stay the night
i promise that i wont bite
cause without you there
i dont think, i can close my eyes

how do i end up this way
a constant knot in my gut
tied with uncertainty and with lust

a classic case i suppose
a haunted man who cant outrun his ghost
its in my skin and my bones

starting on september 5th, the restaurant is closing at 11-12 am instead of 2 am every night.

there is a fucking god.

i’ll gladly slog through the bullshit in the pursuit of happiness.. and your good company.

one day man. one day.

so sad how some people have to be handled with kid gloves

• contemplating moving by end of the year. we’ll see. start fresh, yeah?
• i am craving for some real ass sushi/fish and have been for a month now.
• i miss my two best friends. one doesnt have facebook/phone/any way to contact him, and the other is getting ready to be married and teaching at church. times like these i wish i wasn’t an only child. all im doing is hanging out with co-workers or friends that i barely talk to just so i wont be so fucking bored.its cool, but i’m not really myself around them. i guess i’m decent at entertaining myself at times but only for so long.
• i really miss the city. even though i was there like two days. so much to do.
• mexico is crazy. never going there. never seen somebody skinned alive by a knife until yesterday. theres something really unnerving about death to me. how can people so lively just be… gone?
• i recently bought some shoes and clothes and other things for me. i can’t tell you how often i dont get shit for myself. it feels good.
• you were right. it was just convenient for both of us. doesn’t mean i dont like talking to you a lot, cause i do.
• hope fam is okay in LI
• i dont know whats keeping me going anymore. only a few things. in moderation.
• speaking of.. happy bday to terri. big 22. mad im too far to do somethin’ for her bday. or just not closer period.
• dlfpdlfdsfosf fuck. no more thinking, it gets bad at this time as usual. gnight

[5:20] nerk: wat should i change my blog to
[5:20] nerk: since u and ling changed
[5:20] fearthenoob: gay-ass-fucker
[5:20] nerk: good wan
[5:20] fearthenoob: Thanks.
[5:20] fearthenoob: lolz
[5:20] earlwolf: lmaoooo
[5:20] earlwolf: ilovetertle

mi manchi

I totally keep forgetting I lived in New York from 2007-2008.

Probably going to move back sooner than later, yet again.