i hate feeling like a bitch with my feelings. yanno?
sometimes i can hear all the words in the world but actions and seeing things prove otherwise. ah, i dont know. maybe its cause i just dont ask for much. fuck it.
i feel like an idiot. i dont need anybody to care about me, just sounds nice. kill me please
despite the tone of my blog recently, ive been relatively good. just have this burning hunger to switch things up in my life. way way way way too boring. i feel like i’ve been wanting to flip the page for so long and have waited just because i don’t want to do it by myself.
lol im gettin a new “roomate” again. my dad foster homes these bitches. at least i know her and shes pretty cool.
i miss talking every day and being caught up in even the most mundane things in each others lives. just calling to check up and shit. i think ive just been way to used to this that it never really mattered that i talked to you every day, just that i talked to you period. for some reason, i’m missing that though. i feel so out of the loop that i don’t know what to feel at times until i get caught back up.
oh, the places we could go.
just need some reassurance at times.
self worth meter; 5
swings from 0-100 at a minutes notice