did the unthinkable (just kidding) and reached out to terri just to see how she’s doing. she may or may not respond - if anything, i just miss shooting the shit but that’s neither here nor there, if she responds, she responds.
in other news, still find it amazing my cousin is getting married after knowing this chick like half of a year. i have to do a best man’s speech and i have to bullshit like i havent only met this chick once but then i’ll get drunk and eat a lot of caribbean food
i’ve entirely fell off my movie / book steez. i’ve been intending to watch a few more wong kar-wai flicks, as well as the zillions of movies i’ve missed the last year. i also need to catch up on some good thrillers and stuff.
after being single for like 10 months now, chicks are really digging the man-bun. i kind of want to chop off my hair but i think it looks decent long. iono. who cares.
shoutout to small messages or emails or real mail or whatever that gives you a pick-me-up. i try to do that sometimes as well.
shoutout to ice cream sammies
shoutout to basketball coming back
shoutout to the end of this year maybe becoming entertaining because jesus christ this year has been boring as hell besides going to new york for a month.
truth be told, i do wonder how terri is doing from time to time.
it’s only natural, i suppose. i don’t feel bad about it. there is no underlying feeling with it, especially considering i was in a loving, pretty damn rewarding relationship for over/around a year before just stuff not working out earlier this year.
but still. terri was still one of the most intriguing and knowledgeable people i’ve befriended. i learned a lot from her - shared damn near everything with her.
things did end up sour. i boxed her into places i never intended (when you like somebody you say dumb things) to and left her in shitty positions time and time again where her only option was to hurt me and i deserved it. and even if it was her own doing at times, i don’t hold any ill will towards it. i’m sure we’re two completely different people now, and i know how asinine i was towards certain situations that i can only shake my head at now.
but, it is what it is. regret is for suckers. we’re two strong personalities, and she had an infectious one that fueled a lot of interests i still have to this day.
of course, i’m not holding out for anything - christ, i stopped almost 2 years ago or something now, even if it would be extremely cool to hear from her and check my email one day and be like oh shit. but i don’t expect anything and thats ok, like i’ve stated time and time again on this blog, i never did anything maliciously or with any agenda. hope shes at peace and enjoying life